R.e.l.e.a.s.e
I've not been myself for the past one week plus,
been feeling very low,
been feeling very down.
I guess it's all due to the past week
being sick n working long hours,
and it happens that nobody is at home
all thru the nite
on the 3 days when i'm actually home.
and my beloved is also caught up with work.
and my body was oso seeing red.
All the chances,
all the tiredness,
led the lonely monster to creep into me,
and work its curse on me.
It made me feel alone and sad,
lonely and unloved.
My mood became very low,
I just couldn't lift up my spirits.
Den dardar thought I was thinking too much.
Imagining things.
But I wasn't.
I felt lonely, that's all.
I'm not insecure or worried or what.
I just felt lonely. That's all.
It affected no doubt me and dar the most.
I'm sorry my dear.
But,
the good news here is,
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I'm okay now already!
Life is about choices.
Happiness is by choice,
not by chance.
I've decided to snap out of it,
and be a happier mouse.
Yes, I've snapped out of it.
It's very strange.
First, the sadness inside the heart
felt so heavy that you didnt think
the feeling would go away.
Suddenly, the lonely monster
just slipped away, outta my heart,
and i'm okay once more.
I'm sorry my dear,
but I hope everything would just
become even better and stronger.
About the things we discussed,
I believe time and effort will
make things even more beautiful
than before. In the near future.
I believe it will.
I will put in my part of effort too.
I just wish to experience
all the new things in life with you.
Trying out new activities,
going to new places;
All these memories,
i hope you'll be inside too :)
It strengthens bond, doesn't it?
Haha,
it's like i finally smiled,
after opening up my heart.
Like heaving a sigh of relief.
It feels good to be okay once more,
It really feel damn good.
Feel like shouting! Lol ^.^
Here, i'll like to say sorry
to bro, yk, kl sis, van sis and yq,
i chose not to join for e two gatherings,
cos i really dun wanna affect ur mood.
I love you darlings still!
Thanx sis, bro, yq and wenfang.
For caring, for loving.
Thank you so much really.
Seriously I feel like shaking up myself.
I'm really problematic inside i guess.
*shrugs*
Anyway,
here are a few pics which were left out
cos i received them later.
At arena,
whole family in,
xlp, lp, lg, xq, xxq :)
our favourite family code.
love the girls ^^
Van's bday at Liquid40.
the 3 who have walked thru so much,
so many years,
together. *loves*
(if i can i would erase the head behind,
dunno who lol)
All in.
I like this pic.
It just feels so sweet.
A newer post very soon,
to upload some pics,
and also about my samsung work.
*loves*
Rejection is okay once in a while.
Too often, and it leads to disappointment.
Having zero expectations,
equals zero disappointment.
But what an unexciting life,
would that become?
