to lead a free and happy life, with all the right people!♥♥♥

Thursday, September 21, 2006

yesterday

went to cwp with guss to watch movie, the banquet.
the show was nice,
quite spectacular,
n guys out there,
u can see zhang ziyi half naked
(reads: naked back)

but the ending was left hanging.
so it's open for guesses.

anyway,
i donned my usual bamboo red jacket,
but with the keys necklace!
haha like i said,
i'll be wearing it more often,
n looks not bad wor haha.

n he gave me flowers!
haix.
i was like, y the ??
i wanted a reason for them,
if not i'll not accept.

so he told me we knew each other for 1 year oredi.
20th sep.
oh yahz.
first day of uob training last year.
okie reason accepted.

but at my doorstep,
he gave me another 2 flowers.
so total 3.
i have no idea for its actual meanings,
cox im not dat much of a flower person.

but wad i felt is dat,
how shud i go on from here?
he's still waiting for me,
but im still holding on for Him.

i've become a much more carefree person nowadays,
compared to the gloomy n melancholic me
in the earlier months.
but does dat me i have lesser probs now?
or genuinely a happier person?

sadly no it doesnt.
i realize,
i've been using a newer way to lead my life.
i enclose all probs,
all troubles,
to the back of my mind.

i try not to think.
i dun recall.
i dun cry.
i dun feel.

but it all goes to show
im e s c a p i n g.
wad a coward.
im not solving probs,
im not making decisions.

im putting myself n others
in a spot.
but i really dun wan to think.
i dun wan to decide.
i dun wan!

im going mad,
or rather im going mad
if i choose to settle things.

i wan to continue running.
running away from reality.
i cant handle,
i dunno how to face everything.

to lead a happy life at {2:52 PM}
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

few days didnt blog le,
so busy n tired!

the new sch term is kinda hectic,
3 week days per week after work!

n i was so damn worn out on sat,
frm thurs n fri's work plus lessons.

anyway,
gotta post some pics which ive taken in the past week.

i realize dis keys necklace (neglected abit too long)
looks gd with alot of tops!
not only with e white shirt,
tink it goes well with dis green top too :)

i've been wearing e key necklace
from sk jew since my bdae,
n neglected dis one.
but i'll be wearing it more often now!

my cuzzie came my house on sun,
n we had so much food!
mum is always mad when it comes to food
- no estimation no budget.
we had a heavy brunch,
n made so much sushi,
n she still had curry chicken!

felt like an overloaded pig dis few days =(

took pics with her to test her bf's
new hp k800i (my target)
n its cam was indeed damn gd.

we took e pics in my dark bedroom
w/o turning on flashlights.
but come out still so bright!

it's amazing.
but wad's more amazing is my FAT face!
im getting fatter dis days,
n im damn fed up with it!
my weight's still constant,
but i dunno y my face getting rounder n rounder.
SIGH

n below is a pic of one of my new lecturers,
i was so pissed off in e first lesson last fri!
he slouched on the chair,
laid backwards n talked into e mic lydat!

it's so damn demoralizing
n un-professional~!
i couldnt stand it.
he seems soooo tired n restless.

i wonder how we'll fare in econs.
but heard frm twin bro dat he's not bad,
we'll see how in the nex 21 lessons.

today

i finally received my elf items!
all came intact n fine as i hoped,
but a lil disappointed cox e bronzing blush duo
was a lil darker than expected.
not v suitable for me i tink.
so i opened everything else except dat,
maybe i'll be able to give another fren.

but i like the wet gloss
- lash n brow clear mascara.
looks gd!

im dead beat.
today shud be a gd day to rest.
no lessons!
happy poor soul.

to lead a happy life at {8:18 PM}
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Friday, September 15, 2006

the missing pics from sat zhi's party!
though only half are here.
still got somemore arriving *heez*

dearie xuan n me, with qin ai de n xuan's tiaras!

feel like a princess with e tiara.
love biazn's big white hat!
i love white headpiece man

the group.. the various head gears~!

to lead a happy life at {1:42 AM}
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Sunday, September 10, 2006

saturday

had a long day yesterday!
came home from work,
den ate like a pig
and acted as "beauty consultant"
for my parents!

they dressed up
n consulted my opinion on
their accessories, hair, shirt, shoes etc.
i was almost hilarious keke.
but it's such a warm feeling
to see my parents get close again.

it's been so long.
i tink it has been years.
but dis is wad i've always wanted to see.

n i think my mummy looks great
when she puts on makeup (which is once in a BLUE moon)
n get all dressed up! =D
she has good skin man.
dad looks gd on his new shirt too. weeeet

i love it the most when they take pic
together n be close.
way to go, hope it'll always be dis way!

i got to put on my new wide belt yest!
i love it lots,
but i tink i didnt really wear it dat nice yest.
maybe it'll go better with my new tw clothes?
waiting eagerly for their arrival!

my pimple at the chin sucked.
so damn ugly when i take pics =(
sigh.
oh n i oso put on the keys necklace for e 1st time!
since my bdae i haven put on once keke.
it goes well with white collar top i tink.

went to zhi's party at arab street,
but the pics are not here yet =x
gotta wait for them to send me,
we took loads of pics!
her theme was headgear/headpiece,
n it was damn fun!
*waiting for the pics*

after dat i went to ni's party,
but it ended quite early n abruptly.

so me n dearie sis n na went town
to chill out,
with na's frenz called wei, natalie, weizi and clarence.

was quite distant initially,
but after we went hard rock for drinks,
we laughed n joked n got high!
haha.
the girl called nat is the kind i'll go drinkin with!
super onz n helluva gd drinker kind.

n actually,
i find weizi quite looking
*sshhh*

pics with dearie sis n na!

i hate my pimple.
*make it disappear quick*

to lead a happy life at {8:42 PM}
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missing quan-jia-fu from e ktv nite!

to lead a happy life at {8:40 PM}
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Saturday, September 09, 2006

wednesday

i had dental on wed morning,
damn early at 8.15,
but gd thing it was at outram park,
so i headed to chinatown after dat to get my belts!
been searching for so long,
thanx to pegs n one mag,
i found e shop!!

e lovely belts..

today

forgot these two pics taken on which day,
but they were BEFORE my pimple popped out!

n dis is AFTER!!
taken today after i came back from work.
my pimple is so bad below e mouth!
n i told siti i felt like an indian.
cox the dot is in the middle.
(but she said for indian it's at forehead not at chin haha)

n im gg to 2 bdae parties today!
omg.
how to hide?
im a girl who doesnt own n doesnt know how to use concealers!
i salute gers who can prettily cover up all pimple n stuff!!

groans today shud i take pics using fingers to cover my mouth?
den can cover the pimple!!
hahaha
im mad.

gg to meet dearest xuan n gang at bugis later,
zhi having her small party at somewhere arab?
i wanna go shop b4 meeting them!
den after dat gotta rush to sengkang for fenni's bdae.

i bought perfumes for both gers!
haha xuan they all said ok so i juz got it!
fenni's a CD jadore which i've nv heard b4,
zhi's a new fragrance from Guess,
n i love it!
so tempted to one for myself too,
but we'll see how after my pay comes!
no pics sadly, cox the perfumes all wrapped up orediiii.

i wan the Guess perfume!!! ahhh
oh n i bought a new pore pack from Biore,
it's black!
the girl said it's betta than the normal one
will try it later!

to lead a happy life at {4:06 PM}
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thursday

ktv nite on thurs,
gathering for jw before he go ns!
n full attendance marked, all 8 of us
dearie siss, hl n angel, gby and yk!
woohoo so long nv everybody come out le
so i say, jw bro has got e face!!

sisters at K..so long nv see van le

bro wants more pics of his hair before it's gone!

n more.. angel is so big-eyed pretty!

had fun on thurs,
ended with supper at 888,
n i came back to finish up my wardrobe,
(so happie i finished)
zzzing super late dat nite.

to lead a happy life at {3:39 PM}
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Monday, September 04, 2006

sianz half, confirmed the post abt last evening didnt get thru.
picasa - u played me out huh.

gg to be short den.
pics taken b4 gg out to xuan's house.

felt abit sad dat how come i look worse than after wake up
BEFORE dressing up to go out. (previous post)
my hair my eyes my brow all look odd.
=S

the food..
spaghetti, sauces, ikea's meatballs, roasted chicken n vege.
*slurps* the meatballs

the peepz..

zhi looked damn pretty in e 2nd pic,
tan en looked so shuai when not captured full face
*mean* haha

everybody..

it had been fun,
but my post didnt get thru im lazy to retype everything.

to lead a happy life at {10:04 PM}
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dunno previous post was successfully posted by picasa anotz.
anyway it was about yesterday's gathering, it was fun.

but today, went back to office with a happy light mood,
only to discover that i've been poisoned again.
with a backstabber's dirty knife.

i dun understand,
n i dunno how long more does SHE want to do dis kind of things,
until she's HAPPY enough to let me off.

i am only glad, that for one thing,
my shifu n a few others are standing by me,
my shifu is bracing me thru all dis.

n i've told myself,
i'm gg to take things in my stride,
when pple put me down,
i stand up n will not be down!

but still, i felt upset.
i was hit.
n i felt useless abt it.
cox it shows backstabbers win after all.
dat is sad. i must be STRONGER! ROAR

im gonna make myself a toughie pie dat no one can break!
from now onwards,
i'm gg to be super duper careful bout my work,
bout everything i do,
till u have nuthing to pit against me.

though i know dat's difficult,
but at least i muz do my best to build my own shield.
YOU are one of the worst pple i've seen!
crap!

anyway, i felt dat i mustn't be defeated lydat again.
feeling upset n down is like
giving others pleasure when their aim is to get u down.

lucky it's term break dis week,
i shant rush anything,
i CHECK my work till it's upside down correct,
i DO everything till it's sui sui done,
n i SEE wad u still wanna do!
hmmpf wanna play den play!
tho i noe u are power, but so wad?!
i start protecting myself,
hopefully things go well for me n e rest at work.

n lastly, shifu said something so funny today.
n it makes sense.
why does SHE always go key siao when cat's not here?
u need frens so much izzit??
u wanna poison her mind u do dat.
i juz dun understand y cat always believes you.
dat is sad.

YOU ARE CRAP!

to lead a happy life at {8:51 PM}
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pictures taken on sun after i woke up.
was feeling damn bored n took dis silly pics with my hp.
couldnt smile for e cam at first,
den took some ugly silly shots
and then i could smile! lol
(donning my jc pe tee super long nv wear liaoz)

to lead a happy life at {7:58 PM}
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Saturday, September 02, 2006

im soo tired today.
n i slept on e train all the way back from sch till i thought
i might fall asleep anytime while walking home.
so im damn damn tired.
n i shud be hitting the sack straight,
so i oso dun understand y did i switch on e comp
n end up blogging here?

but maybe i juz needed to write down my tots b4 i can sleep.
so many things happened dis few days,
but not exactly many oso.

but on wed, something very diu1 lian3 happened.
a big 21 yr old girl, on a rainy stormy evening,
at a super crowded n flooded bus stop at clementi,
cried becos she was so damn scared of the lightning n thunder.

she blasted her ear phones to their loudest,
but she only escaped the thunder n not the lightning.
after she boarded the bus,
the lightnings still did not stop.
n she couldn't bear it anymore.

the useless girl was yours truly.
have always managed to be home or stay home
during such bad weathers.
but dat day, i couldnt avoid it cox i had sch.
n it's damn scary n down n spoilt my entire mood.

sis, i dunno wad i can do to overcome dis stupid thing.
i guess im quite useless man.
nex time if i have kids how? tell them mommy scared?
JOKE.

anyway, dat didnt give me a break for e rest of e evening.
i had gastrits attack in e midst of my lesson.
n i did eat all my meals!!
wth, n i dun have any med with me!
i was like zzz@*#$%.
trying so hard to focus den kena gastrics.

but luckily jen drove me home on wed,
so i managed to get home in ONE piece.

btw one more garfield joined my garf family!
entry date was yesterday.
it's a unique one, but it came as a total surprise to me.

tada!

the surprise part was,
it was from yaosheng~?!

the unique part is, the plaster!
it was on the part where the heart is,
n i tot it's made original!!
only after he told me he put it on himself
den i knew it's self added!
i muz say it's v nice though.

but had quite a shock when i talked with ys
n i dunno if he actually meant anything more.
saying things like e plaster isnt dere for no reason,
hoping it will heal n be removed one day.

i went ~huh~ n chose to act blur.
anyway i found it quite apt to describe my life.
im plastered, yes, n like guss said,
i've closed the door to my heart
n chose not to let anyone else in.
added together, they summed up my current life.

i dun mind being plastered for life though.
yea there's a deep scar there,
but so what?
i am going to love life n live it happy
with all my loved ones, my dearest family
n darling sisters n buddies n friends!

i'm going to work towards making my life more beautiful.
love can wait,
till im ever ready again.

right now, there's still only Him inside my heart.

back to garf,
dis is the smallest plush garf i have:

mentioned to ys yesterday i hav a big collection
of garf of many sizes.
the smallest is dis to the biggest in my cupboard.
so the one i got last nite was somewhere middle.

going to bed at nite with so many lil garfs
surrounding me is a nice feeling.
i still wan a peaceful life right now.

fun n excitement yes,
but not too much stimulating stuff for the heart.
my heart is taking a long rest.
meanwhile, it still misses Him.

NITEX.....

to lead a happy life at {12:21 AM}
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Crestfallen

*elaine
*e.MouSe
*26.jan.85
*emouse26@yahoo.com
*elaine_cheng26@hotmail.com
*uol year 3 student
*loves garfield
*loves fann wong
*loves pampering myself
*cherish people who heart me
*adores all pretty babes on earth

Yearning for

♥a peaceful life♥

now: yearning for a happy life and excellent results.

♥My Wish List♥

♥nice laptop pouch
♥good earphones
♥white tote
♥gold gucci tote
♥guess perfume
♥burberry weekend
♥trip to hongkong
♥trip to taiwan
♥trip to australia
♥trip to japan
♥lotsa money to buy things for myself & everybody i love

♥Dearies♥