to lead a free and happy life, with all the right people!♥♥♥

Monday, June 30, 2008

dedicated to two of the
most important people in my life.

S.H.E -魔力

i have you to be with
everything will be easy

晒的阳光淋的雨滴都值得回忆

i have you to be with

才懂心不够近才怕距离
心电感应绝不断讯会如影随行

曾灰心以为我来错了世界
太多想法很另类找不到人了解

当我说的感觉牵动著你的脸
互动的泪让我们变得特别

你是我的魔力想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛把不如意都变成流星
你是我的魔力心情不好我就想你
删除忧郁复制甜蜜笑容不结冰

曾灰心以为我来错了世界
太多想法很另类找不到人了解

当我说的感觉牵动著你的脸
互动的泪让我们变得特别

你是我的魔力想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛把不如意都变成流星
你是我的魔力心情不好我就想你
删除忧郁复制甜蜜笑容不结冰

幸福是间电影院没有单人的座位
要肩碰肩才能看好戏上演

你是我的魔力想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛把不如意都变成流星
你是我的魔力心情不好我就想你
删除忧郁复制甜蜜笑容不结冰

i have you to be with
everything will be easy

晒的阳光淋的雨滴都值得回忆

i have you to be with

才懂心不够近才怕距离
心电感应绝不断讯会如影随行

loves.

to lead a happy life at {2:01 AM}
________________ . . . . _______________

Reflection

more often than not,
whenever you sense something is not right or wrong,
the problem usually lies in yourself.

and it's true.
i think so,
and i believe so.

a nite for reflection, a nite for thinking.

but a nite is not enough.
never enough.

time, i believe time is the key
and oso the right mindset.

i guess i've been losing a little of myself slowly,
and it's time to pick up the pieces.

think what has gone wrong
and what should be corrected.

of course,
i know i cant make things change overnight.
but,
i appreciate greatly dat at least it's discovered early.

like a tumour,
i believe that cracks that are left un-discovered
over time will turn into broken pieces totally,
like a malignant tumour.

so at least,
an earlier discovered crack can be mended and
hopefully be repaired
and sealed up to its original condition.
at least i hope.

i seriously pray in my heart that
this whole thing can be mended.

it hurts me so much that it aches alot.
alot.

i believe and hope that
everything will be well once again.
i do not have faith in myself,
but i have faith in the friendship.

i believe that the strong love i have for it,
the strong love that we have for it,
will pull us through.

it is not a friendship.
it is the friendship.

i cant do without it.
i cant do without you.
and you know who you are.
really love you two lots. lots.
from the bottom of my heart.

nitex my blog, nitex my friend.
i'm sorry for everything.

i just wanna let you know,
how much i treasure this in my heart.
nothing can ever replace it.
the road we have walked down together
has been so tough. so tough.
i know our road is still very much longer.

would i be able to sleep tonight?

to lead a happy life at {12:20 AM}
________________ . . . . _______________

Monday, June 16, 2008

Thoughts

Several things or outings have taken place
since the last post.

My exams were over on 3rd June,
havoc started since till now.

Back from KL, several other outings
n meetups took place.
I gonna load many many pics soon.

But.

There are a lot of things running thru
my mind recently.

Felt certain emotions again n i wonder,
are they true?

Are my intuition for certain things true?
Or am i being over-sensitive?

Feel very down whenever i get deep into
these thoughts.

I told dd about it, he said that it's enough
to have him.
I know he's great n wonderful,
I know love is perfect when everything
is smooth.

But we are not 18-year-olds anymore.
We all know that there is always rain n shine,
life includes thunderstorms as well.

So, when something or anything happens,
ur friends, ur sisters, ur dearest ones,
are all very important as well.

I've always seen my closest friends n sisters
as very important people in my life.
I need them, I love them,
and I wan to share everything with them,
happy or sad.
In the same way, I've always wanted them to
share with me as well, not only sad things but
oso happy things.

But maybe i am not good enough,
I am never a priority in other pp's lives,
even though i really prioritise them highly.

Maybe i am just not good enough.

I really dread the feeling of exclusion.
Being excluded, even in the most indirect way,
is very hurting indeed.

So much so that i cannot imagine myself
living in the world one day without
a true friend.

How horrible is that. Cannot imagine.
I hate this feeling.

Had a fun n long day.
Tiring day.
Outta sleep.

But i cant sleep.
Just cant sleep.

Wondering what it would be like,
to shut off ur ownself again,
once again.

to lead a happy life at {1:05 AM}
________________ . . . . _______________

Crestfallen

*elaine
*e.MouSe
*26.jan.85
*emouse26@yahoo.com
*elaine_cheng26@hotmail.com
*uol year 3 student
*loves garfield
*loves fann wong
*loves pampering myself
*cherish people who heart me
*adores all pretty babes on earth

Yearning for

♥a peaceful life♥

now: yearning for a happy life and excellent results.

♥My Wish List♥

♥nice laptop pouch
♥good earphones
♥white tote
♥gold gucci tote
♥guess perfume
♥burberry weekend
♥trip to hongkong
♥trip to taiwan
♥trip to australia
♥trip to japan
♥lotsa money to buy things for myself & everybody i love

♥Dearies♥