to lead a free and happy life, with all the right people!♥♥♥

Monday, June 16, 2008

Thoughts

Several things or outings have taken place
since the last post.

My exams were over on 3rd June,
havoc started since till now.

Back from KL, several other outings
n meetups took place.
I gonna load many many pics soon.

But.

There are a lot of things running thru
my mind recently.

Felt certain emotions again n i wonder,
are they true?

Are my intuition for certain things true?
Or am i being over-sensitive?

Feel very down whenever i get deep into
these thoughts.

I told dd about it, he said that it's enough
to have him.
I know he's great n wonderful,
I know love is perfect when everything
is smooth.

But we are not 18-year-olds anymore.
We all know that there is always rain n shine,
life includes thunderstorms as well.

So, when something or anything happens,
ur friends, ur sisters, ur dearest ones,
are all very important as well.

I've always seen my closest friends n sisters
as very important people in my life.
I need them, I love them,
and I wan to share everything with them,
happy or sad.
In the same way, I've always wanted them to
share with me as well, not only sad things but
oso happy things.

But maybe i am not good enough,
I am never a priority in other pp's lives,
even though i really prioritise them highly.

Maybe i am just not good enough.

I really dread the feeling of exclusion.
Being excluded, even in the most indirect way,
is very hurting indeed.

So much so that i cannot imagine myself
living in the world one day without
a true friend.

How horrible is that. Cannot imagine.
I hate this feeling.

Had a fun n long day.
Tiring day.
Outta sleep.

But i cant sleep.
Just cant sleep.

Wondering what it would be like,
to shut off ur ownself again,
once again.

to lead a happy life at {1:05 AM}
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Crestfallen

*elaine
*e.MouSe
*26.jan.85
*emouse26@yahoo.com
*elaine_cheng26@hotmail.com
*uol year 3 student
*loves garfield
*loves fann wong
*loves pampering myself
*cherish people who heart me
*adores all pretty babes on earth

Yearning for

♥a peaceful life♥

now: yearning for a happy life and excellent results.

♥My Wish List♥

♥nice laptop pouch
♥good earphones
♥white tote
♥gold gucci tote
♥guess perfume
♥burberry weekend
♥trip to hongkong
♥trip to taiwan
♥trip to australia
♥trip to japan
♥lotsa money to buy things for myself & everybody i love

♥Dearies♥