to lead a free and happy life, with all the right people!♥♥♥

Saturday, September 02, 2006

im soo tired today.
n i slept on e train all the way back from sch till i thought
i might fall asleep anytime while walking home.
so im damn damn tired.
n i shud be hitting the sack straight,
so i oso dun understand y did i switch on e comp
n end up blogging here?

but maybe i juz needed to write down my tots b4 i can sleep.
so many things happened dis few days,
but not exactly many oso.

but on wed, something very diu1 lian3 happened.
a big 21 yr old girl, on a rainy stormy evening,
at a super crowded n flooded bus stop at clementi,
cried becos she was so damn scared of the lightning n thunder.

she blasted her ear phones to their loudest,
but she only escaped the thunder n not the lightning.
after she boarded the bus,
the lightnings still did not stop.
n she couldn't bear it anymore.

the useless girl was yours truly.
have always managed to be home or stay home
during such bad weathers.
but dat day, i couldnt avoid it cox i had sch.
n it's damn scary n down n spoilt my entire mood.

sis, i dunno wad i can do to overcome dis stupid thing.
i guess im quite useless man.
nex time if i have kids how? tell them mommy scared?
JOKE.

anyway, dat didnt give me a break for e rest of e evening.
i had gastrits attack in e midst of my lesson.
n i did eat all my meals!!
wth, n i dun have any med with me!
i was like zzz@*#$%.
trying so hard to focus den kena gastrics.

but luckily jen drove me home on wed,
so i managed to get home in ONE piece.

btw one more garfield joined my garf family!
entry date was yesterday.
it's a unique one, but it came as a total surprise to me.

tada!

the surprise part was,
it was from yaosheng~?!

the unique part is, the plaster!
it was on the part where the heart is,
n i tot it's made original!!
only after he told me he put it on himself
den i knew it's self added!
i muz say it's v nice though.

but had quite a shock when i talked with ys
n i dunno if he actually meant anything more.
saying things like e plaster isnt dere for no reason,
hoping it will heal n be removed one day.

i went ~huh~ n chose to act blur.
anyway i found it quite apt to describe my life.
im plastered, yes, n like guss said,
i've closed the door to my heart
n chose not to let anyone else in.
added together, they summed up my current life.

i dun mind being plastered for life though.
yea there's a deep scar there,
but so what?
i am going to love life n live it happy
with all my loved ones, my dearest family
n darling sisters n buddies n friends!

i'm going to work towards making my life more beautiful.
love can wait,
till im ever ready again.

right now, there's still only Him inside my heart.

back to garf,
dis is the smallest plush garf i have:

mentioned to ys yesterday i hav a big collection
of garf of many sizes.
the smallest is dis to the biggest in my cupboard.
so the one i got last nite was somewhere middle.

going to bed at nite with so many lil garfs
surrounding me is a nice feeling.
i still wan a peaceful life right now.

fun n excitement yes,
but not too much stimulating stuff for the heart.
my heart is taking a long rest.
meanwhile, it still misses Him.

NITEX.....

to lead a happy life at {12:21 AM}
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Crestfallen

*elaine
*e.MouSe
*26.jan.85
*emouse26@yahoo.com
*elaine_cheng26@hotmail.com
*uol year 3 student
*loves garfield
*loves fann wong
*loves pampering myself
*cherish people who heart me
*adores all pretty babes on earth

Yearning for

♥a peaceful life♥

now: yearning for a happy life and excellent results.

♥My Wish List♥

♥nice laptop pouch
♥good earphones
♥white tote
♥gold gucci tote
♥guess perfume
♥burberry weekend
♥trip to hongkong
♥trip to taiwan
♥trip to australia
♥trip to japan
♥lotsa money to buy things for myself & everybody i love

♥Dearies♥