to lead a free and happy life, with all the right people!♥♥♥

Thursday, September 21, 2006

yesterday

went to cwp with guss to watch movie, the banquet.
the show was nice,
quite spectacular,
n guys out there,
u can see zhang ziyi half naked
(reads: naked back)

but the ending was left hanging.
so it's open for guesses.

anyway,
i donned my usual bamboo red jacket,
but with the keys necklace!
haha like i said,
i'll be wearing it more often,
n looks not bad wor haha.

n he gave me flowers!
haix.
i was like, y the ??
i wanted a reason for them,
if not i'll not accept.

so he told me we knew each other for 1 year oredi.
20th sep.
oh yahz.
first day of uob training last year.
okie reason accepted.

but at my doorstep,
he gave me another 2 flowers.
so total 3.
i have no idea for its actual meanings,
cox im not dat much of a flower person.

but wad i felt is dat,
how shud i go on from here?
he's still waiting for me,
but im still holding on for Him.

i've become a much more carefree person nowadays,
compared to the gloomy n melancholic me
in the earlier months.
but does dat me i have lesser probs now?
or genuinely a happier person?

sadly no it doesnt.
i realize,
i've been using a newer way to lead my life.
i enclose all probs,
all troubles,
to the back of my mind.

i try not to think.
i dun recall.
i dun cry.
i dun feel.

but it all goes to show
im e s c a p i n g.
wad a coward.
im not solving probs,
im not making decisions.

im putting myself n others
in a spot.
but i really dun wan to think.
i dun wan to decide.
i dun wan!

im going mad,
or rather im going mad
if i choose to settle things.

i wan to continue running.
running away from reality.
i cant handle,
i dunno how to face everything.

to lead a happy life at {2:52 PM}
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Crestfallen

*elaine
*e.MouSe
*26.jan.85
*emouse26@yahoo.com
*elaine_cheng26@hotmail.com
*uol year 3 student
*loves garfield
*loves fann wong
*loves pampering myself
*cherish people who heart me
*adores all pretty babes on earth

Yearning for

♥a peaceful life♥

now: yearning for a happy life and excellent results.

♥My Wish List♥

♥nice laptop pouch
♥good earphones
♥white tote
♥gold gucci tote
♥guess perfume
♥burberry weekend
♥trip to hongkong
♥trip to taiwan
♥trip to australia
♥trip to japan
♥lotsa money to buy things for myself & everybody i love

♥Dearies♥