to lead a free and happy life, with all the right people!♥♥♥

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

it's the fourth day since the nightmare happened, n im still resting at home, wishing everything away, casting everything out of my head. but e scenes are too vivid, they keep appearing before my eyes.

nvm bout dat, i'll continue to try my best, to forget everything, to start my life anew, alone, with peace. i know i will always have my closest friends with me by my side, will always have my family with me. like ive said, only family n friends are for life.

juz changed my blog skin, hope i'll still like it after some time. i liked the old one, but the fonts are not appearing right on my lappy so i'll rather change it. was deciding to change to which song to host, in e end decided to use wo yao kuai le by ah mei.. not my first choice though, but felt dat hearing it can calm my nerves n make me peaceful.

had been quite nervous or scared at moments when i was lying in bed or juz woke up, seeing the nightmare re-enact before my eyes. tried to stop thinking, but it came naturally. i guess the shock was too great, too great to juz keep it in my head.

sigh, been taking painkillers to go sleep n ease the pain, but today was better, didnt take any so far. not much appetite dis few days, weight dropped a lil but juz as well, can slim down, haa.

junwei juz msged mi to go ktv tonight, say it's on him, but dun tink i haf e mood n energy to go outside, still tired n oso to be honest dun really dare to go out now, everytime my house door open i hold my breath for a second.

haix tink i'll continue to rest, my blog is done, guess nex thing is to tidy my drawers abit or watch vcds, to idle my time away..

to lead a happy life at {4:51 PM}
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Crestfallen

*elaine
*e.MouSe
*26.jan.85
*emouse26@yahoo.com
*elaine_cheng26@hotmail.com
*uol year 3 student
*loves garfield
*loves fann wong
*loves pampering myself
*cherish people who heart me
*adores all pretty babes on earth

Yearning for

♥a peaceful life♥

now: yearning for a happy life and excellent results.

♥My Wish List♥

♥nice laptop pouch
♥good earphones
♥white tote
♥gold gucci tote
♥guess perfume
♥burberry weekend
♥trip to hongkong
♥trip to taiwan
♥trip to australia
♥trip to japan
♥lotsa money to buy things for myself & everybody i love

♥Dearies♥