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Friday, May 14, 2004

lazy friday afternoon. rotting at hm now, at first supposed to go down raffles de but yiru say she sick cannot go le. so here i am, nothing to do, wanted to set up karaoke but dad has changed his system again, now muz wait for him to come back help mi set up.

woke up at 12 today, wei called mi n chatted, n till now i haf not eaten anything much. dun haf any appetite, n it muz be 'coz of last nite. went to dbl o wif kknut, sheena, her frenz, xian, fenni, sylvester n some others i dunno de. intended not to dance but drink onli coz so shagged le, but in e end still got dance abit wif fenni they all.

drank alot last nite, n tink becoz i tio mani times to drink during the games and oso dunno who gave mi the chivas to drink, in e end realli abit drunk le. after the rest all go le left mi n nut n sylvester they all, den nut force mi go back inside to make myself vomit. haaz but in e end i oso nv vomit coz dunno how to force it out.

haaz even more funny is i tot i lost my wallet wif my ic in it den we look ard n sylvester even went gers toilet help mi find. i tot he playing wif mi den keep asking him to take out n even checked his whole bag sia. in e end it was found downstairs in the entrance. paisehz dat i wronged him keke.

he keep asking nut go hm den say he can send mi hm. sot sot de he live so far. i reached hm le vomit abit den veri soon go zzz le. today nv feel anything unwell except no appetite.

oh. almost forgot bout the whole chalet thingy. sigh, i tink yong'an wun be contacting mi for the near future. stayed overnite at chalet for wed nite, den lucky seby got stay oso, we chatted alot at the beach n updated each other bout our situations. wads funny is i tink yong'an tot we got something going on. biggest joke man.

den seby forced mi to a bet, saying yong'an sure confess to mi soon, after he see how yong'an behave for the whole nite. who noes so fast thurs afternoon we two left e chalet den he msg mi le.

oredi said b4, he's out of the picture. told him clearly, and i tink dis time round he's so much more serious. sense he feel real sad. n he needs time, lots of time before we can become gd frenz again. sigh, dun like it when frenships haf to end up dis way.

aniwae, juz hope dat in time to come we can become frenz again. sigh, dat nite at the beach oso calmed my heart abit, listening to the peaceful waves. seriously i dunno how to continue handling my relationship wif ky.

maybe i realli shudnt patch, but how shud i break it to him dat i dun intend to patch? he seems so prepared for a positive ans, i realli dun dare to hurt him again. but nephew is right, he hit the nail dat since i noe dat ultimately i wun be wif ky for long before problems arise again, i shudnt patch for the sake of not hurting him now.

haix. whenever think of dis den one word comes: FAN. veri vexed sia. drink so much oso no use. wake up le oso fan again. sigh. i need him? i need him not? i love him? i love him not? i D.U.N.N.O.

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*elaine
*e.MouSe
*26.jan.85
*emouse26@yahoo.com
*elaine_cheng26@hotmail.com
*uol year 3 student
*loves garfield
*loves fann wong
*loves pampering myself
*cherish people who heart me
*adores all pretty babes on earth

Yearning for

♥a peaceful life♥

now: yearning for a happy life and excellent results.

♥My Wish List♥

♥nice laptop pouch
♥good earphones
♥white tote
♥gold gucci tote
♥guess perfume
♥burberry weekend
♥trip to hongkong
♥trip to taiwan
♥trip to australia
♥trip to japan
♥lotsa money to buy things for myself & everybody i love

♥Dearies♥